I’m in love with my idea of a man.

We lay around with the thought of having the perfect relationship with the perfect guy. And if he’s not the perfect guy, we all want to be the girl to change him to make him perfect, for us. We’re selfish. We say we’re in love even though we stride to change the man that we claim we are in love with. The fact of the matter is, don’t try to change them in any way. If you’re fed up with their lying and cheating, simply let them know. It’s their decision to change. It’s your decision of whether or not you’re going to stay. I mean we’re in high school. We’re all only interested in our own egos and wants. We only realize years later, what we really want.

I don’t think that I ever got what I wanted. I don’t think we ever get what we want. I’ve never had my “perfect guy”. I’m completely in love with my perfect guy. But that guy is merely a figment of my imagination. My perfect guy would be smart, funny, generous, down to earth, tall, have pearly whites, swag, loves sports and outdoors and has a talent for it too, uses proper grammar, has determination for a better life, knows the difference from right and wrong, and loves me unconditionally, ect. But from my experience, I’ve never had a guy that remotely completes even half of the things on this list. I’m not picky, so the guys that I end up with are never compared to my list. If I were that picky, I’d be single for the rest of my life because no one would ever be good enough. Fortunately, all I really want is to have a connection with him. Mm, yeah. As long as there’s chemistry, you got me.

posted : Sunday, March 7th, 2010

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