I’ve been told that I have the mentality to take on things that I can’t necessary handle. But I do try my best at it and sometimes I get things done, sometimes I don’t. Lately, I’ve been feeling so pessimistic about my future. I feel like I won’t come out to anything. Yesterday, I got a letter from Santa Clara University - a school that I’m considering - so that made me feel the least bit more secure. Do not tell me that it’s too early to think about college, because it obviously is not. We send our applications less than a year from now. And we will be hearing from them around this time next year. One year is not a very long time from now. I can still remember what my life was like, what I felt about people, and my perspective on my surroundings, one year ago. I’m just trying to say that a year isn’t as long as we perceive it to be and I guess that in spite of recent events, I’ve lost my view on things and people. I want it back. I need it back. I mean, who can live a life without any perspective? Without any motivation. I certainly can’t. I’ve been carrying around this heavy burden of being so scared of what my future will bring upon me that I haven’t taken the time to actually see what my present has already brought me. Don’t get me wrong. Our generation is both privileged and has its disadvantages simultaneously. My parents told me that they’d be proud of me no matter what I do. But they obviously won’t be happy about it unless it is something that requires getting a masters degree and PhD.. We all feel the pressure in different quantities. It’s just some of us feel it and realize it a lot more than others. But what can you do? You can’t prevent the future from happening. Kudos, if you can invent something that will do that though. I will be eternally grateful. (: Oh, and don’t mind my whining. I’m just a little anxious about life.