I’m never going to know the right thing to say.. The perfect words to express my life, my thoughts, my situations, and especially my feelings simply don’t exist. Everything is just cluttered up in my mind. It’s difficult to get my mind straight. It might be a new year with new struggles but it’s still same old me. The same me who tends to fuck up from time to time and never seems to learn a lesson. I guess I never learn from my past, though I am sure that I’ll have more problems to deal with in the future. All I know; betray my trust and you’ll never get it back. And I’m sure its the same way around for many… That’s what I’m afraid of. I just can’t get through to my head that I can’t always have it my way.